It won’t be long.

I’ll be away for a while ’cause of RedCamp8 Student Leader Camp. Until then my friends, this is for you.

It won’t be long yeah ’til I belong to you.

Life is like a roller coaster ride.

Yes, it’s been ages since I last blogged about anything on amadeuswolfgang. Well, I’ve been pretty busy lately.  With… a lot of stuff. I’m too lazy to list everything down. So anyways, I went to an SL inauguration meeting earlier today. Met new people and surprisingly, we bonded really well. They’re all easy going & very fun to talk to. I mean like really, I like them. They’re, well, I don’t how to put this but, it’s just so easy for me to communicate with them. I’m really looking forward for the SL camp at the end of this week. So, I’m in this tribe called NINJA. Pretty swell, huh? Oh well, at least I think it’s cute.

You see this fine lad over here ↓ ?It’s the ‘down’ part of today. He got married to his 3rd wife today. Can I be his 4th wife?

Trying to not be too emotional about it but…

Click here to read more about this heartbreaking news.

People change.

Can you see how pathetically close we were last time?

The busy Queen Bee wants to sting a lazy sloth.

I don’t know what’s up with my blogpost title but yeah, I’ve been pretty busy lately. With tuition lessons, house chores, the stadium track/ the gym and also movies. But I know that everything’s gonna get worse once school starts on the 17th of this month. Let’s start with my tuition lessons, shall we? Hmm… neh, let’s drop the subject. It’s too stressful to even think about the lessons.

So…. about the ‘lazy sloth’. I was referring to my elder brother. I just can’t say anything but he’s really getting on my nerves. He treats my home like a hotel. Like literally. He comes home from work or school late at night. Not saying a word to any of us at home. He even leaves his place messy and mum expects me to clean up his shit. I mean that’s.. uhm well, sexist. I may be the only girl in the house but that does not mean that I have to do all the house chores. Where’s the justice? And not only that, he didn’t even give a nickel to me. Don’t care about me but he should at least stop asking mum and dad for allowance since he’s already working. If I owned a pistol, he would be 7 feet underground by now. I just can’t take it. He must grow up. Sometimes I’m ashamed to call him my brother, but I can’t do anything. Whatever it is, he is still my brother and I have to live with that fact forever. The worst part is my mum just will never stop giving him money even after I tried a million times to tell her not to pamper him too much. That’s why I’ll always conclude that mum loves him more than me. Even my favourite aunt said, “Well, I can see that clearly. From my perspectives, I think most mum will adore they’re first child more dearly than the others.” Just so you know, I’m dying bit by bit now. But yet again, as a girl with a strong will that I am, I’m not gonna stop living my life to the fullest just because of someone. I know I’m going to be useful and important to someone someday. I’ll just have to wait. Even if it takes a thousand years for me to be recognised, I will still work for it. There, I let all my anger out of me. I’m going to continue from where I’ve stopped and prove to my mum that I am worth loving. Anyways, this song is for you brother. Just the chorus will do.

Hate is a strong word but I really really really don’t like you.

You make me fall for you again and again.

This is my all-time favourite song. I just don’t know how to describe my love for their (Phoenix’s) music. It’s like… a brand new love. Well, my point is, I never get bored listening to their songs for a billion times. They’ve stole my heart, well not literally, you know what I mean right? Every time when I’m down, other than songs by The Beatles or Peterpan, their songs also never fail to cheer me up. Like I said, every single time I listen to them, it just feels like a brand new love. Well, maybe they’re not your cup of tea but I’m just telling how they’ve succeeded melting my heart with such beautiful pieces of music.

If I get to meet these guys, I would hug them and say, “I love you guys, really.“

True and everlasting.

It’s best if you put on Dre Beats Headphones.

A big HAHAH to my face. And don’t worry, I don’t like my voice in this video either. Sigh.

A brand new chapter.

I’ve had enough. All your nonsense make me puke. I’ll erase you from my mind and start afresh.

Don’t worry, I’m still rocking and rolling.

The fuck? My post title is so asdfghjkl. Hahah, I just had to do another post today ’cause a lot of my lovely friends had been asking if I’m alright for these past few days. Well, they thought of it that way ’cause I’ve been posting emotional thoughts on amadeuswolfgang recently. So now, here’s a shout out. I’M STILL UP AND RUNNING, MATES. Sometimes, these are the reasons as to why I’ll never commit suicide if I’m down.

To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.

Hey Sweetheart.

Hi. I’ve just found another way to express how I feel lately. Yes, through songs. The songs that I’ve been listening to are somehow related to whatever I’ve been up to. “Hey Sweetheart” by the Nightmare of You is like a.. hmm, dedication to someone? Oh well, just as a final farewell perhaps. Gosh, I’m too sentimental tonight.

Hey sweetheart, 
Don’t take it so hard. 
I’m sorry I was bringing you down. 
I didn’t mean it when I said, that I wish you were dead. 

Hey sweetheart, is that your new car? 
Why don’t you drive it off of a cliff? 
Because I can’t stand your life, 
Since I am no longer in it. 

And the pain is real. 
But so are the pills. 
I can talk to my therapist, pretend you don’t exist. 
The further you go, 
The colder my bones begin to grow. 
They’re cracking and creaking, 
Creating a big scene, 
In the vessel of my body. 

And hey sweetheart, 
How far is too far? 
Cause now I’ve got some blood on my hands. 
It may have been a mistake, 
But I am only a man. 

And the pain is real, 
But so are the pills. 
I can talk to my therapist, pretend you don’t exist. 
The further you go, 
The colder my bones begin to grow. 
They’re cracking and creaking, 
Creating a big scene, 
In the vessel of my body. 

The further you go, 
The colder my bones begin to grow. 
They’re cracking and creaking, 
Creating a big scene, 
In the vessel of my body.

This is for you. Embrace it.

Life’s too short to even care at all.

I can relate this song with whatever I am feeling right now. Well, metaphorically.

Life’s too short to even care at all oh
I’m losing my mind losing my mind losing control
These fishes in the sea they’re staring at me oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
A wet world aches for a beat of a drum
Oh oh

If I could find a way to see this straight
I’d run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now
I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down, come down

Life’s too short to even care at all oh
I’m coming up now coming up now out of the blue
These zombies in the park they’re looking for my heart
Oh oh oh oh
A dark world aches for a splash of the sun oh oh

If I could find a way to see this straight
I’d run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now

So I run down to the things they said could restore me
Restore life the way it should be
I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down

Life’s too short to even care at all oh
I’m losing my mind losing my mind losing control 

If I could find a way to see this straight
I’d run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now

And so I run down to the things they said could restore me
Restore life the way it should be
I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down

One more spoon of cough syrup now [x2]